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김수지 ( Kim Su-Sie ) - 이화여자대학교 간호과학대학
( Martinson Ida ) - UCSF대학
신경림 ( Shin Kyung-Rim ) - 이화여자대학교 간호과학대학
양순옥 ( Yang Soon-Ok ) - 경인여자대학교 간호과
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Abstract
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Suffering is a universal human experience. Human beings living the paradoxical unity of connecting?seperating cocreate rhythmical patterns of relating in open exchange with the universe.
The purpose of this study was to under-stand the structure of the lived suffering experiences of mothers who have lost a child due to cancer. The research question was "what was the structure of the suffering experiences of mothers who have lost a child due to cancer?", using Parse´s Human Becom-. Ing research methodology(Parse, 1992).
The data were collected through in?depth interviews by the investigators over a period of 9 months from October, 1992, to June, 1993. Research participants were selected from mothers in Seoul area who had lost a child due to cancer. Following the Human Becoming research methodology with Dialogical Engagement between the nurse?investigators and the participants, the taped records of the dialogical engagements were transcribed. Sampling was discontinued when the data were theoretically saturated.
The lived suffering experiences include anger, regret, guilt and fear, sadness, a desire to avoid people, loss of confidence, difficulty in accepting reality, loss of meaning in life, changed spiritual belief, longing for lost child, senses of powerlessness and hopelessness, transformed life, changed value, rediscovering the importance of family, insomnia, sorrow, praying for the deceased one, changed attitude for life, senses of collapse and lethargy, perceiving the child´s death as a punishment from God, participating volunteer and religious activities. Twenty three propositions were derived from the data.
The data were analyzed by extraction?synthesis. Four structures of the suffering experiences were identified.
1. Suffering is expressed as verbal and nonverbal guilty feelings which the lived did not do one´s best in order to prevent disease and the loved one´s death.
2. Suffering facilitates the moving toward relating to the lost continuously in emptiness.
3. Suffering increases avoidance from people and artifacts of the lost that triggers longing for the lost.
4. Suffering promotes the transformation of pain through changed views of the self, others, health and death.
These structures were integrated conce-. Ptually as follows :
1, The lived suffering experience is agony of longing for the lost child.
2. The lived suffering experience is a process of meeting?leaving in a paradoxical unity of connecting?seperating.
3. The lived suffering experience is widening human relationships relating ? avoiding in . Paradoxical unity of revealing?concealing.
4. The lived suffering experience is moving energy that searches for the positive changes.
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KeyWords
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원문 및 링크아웃 정보
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등재저널 정보
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